Today, I was moved by Christ more than I ever have been. My mom and I attended together and I feel as though I honestly was alone with Jesus the entire time.
I don't know if it was because I have been looking for more of God in my life lately, missing him, feeling empty and in an overall slump or what; but today was the day I was supposed to find Solid Rock Faith Center. Jesus was speaking directly to me, and I heard his message loud and clear. I was overwhelmed with tears, a rapid heart rate and shaky hands. I felt so complete and so happy. This might all sound weird and dramatic, but today was something else. I have attended different church and worship services in the last few years and have never been broken down to tears. I have never felt compelled to go to the front of the room and just sit and pray in front of the crowd with others seeking his comfort and guidance.
I was silently praying for Christ to reach my Mom. Her heart and mind were open to him today and when I looked over and saw her tears at the end of my prayer, I knew today meant more than normal. Don't get me wrong, I thought I could feel His presence at all times-honest, I do. But today was different- its almost un-explainable. I can't put a feeling into words, but for the time being I will just encourage anyone to open your heart to Christ. If you feel compelled to attend a church service, help the needy or even pray-do so. The reward is immeasurable.
I pray so that Jesus can reform me. I am not perfect. I am not a "gooder." I do not want to try to reassure myself that my goods outweigh my bads so I will have a golden ticket when I meet God. I do not need to debate and argue with anyone. I do not need to prove to anyone how great my God is; I only need to prove to Christ that I am living to fulfill His original intent- not just by being a "gooder" but by freely loving, freely forgiving, freely taking the low post, taking the blame when the fault is not mine simply for the sake of reconciliation When I struggle, which is often, I have prayed to God (and asking you all) to remind me and bring me back to the Word, as it is the only truth.
I am praying for reconciliation restoration and to return to Christ. I need to be renewed. It was easy at first-very easy, and I fully understand that being a child of God is not a cake walk, but it sure is worth every struggle.
Today was an eye-opener. Like I said, I have never felt His presence like I did today. I am so happy that I found a church and a Pastor that can hit me so hard like I did today. I don't go to church to be reminded about how amazing our God is, I go to be challenged. Today I was challenged, big time.
Taylor - Thank you for inviting me to share your morning at Solid Rock Faith Center. As a "First Timer" I will admit it was overwhelming to say the least.
ReplyDeleteI felt welcomed by everyone, some I knew and most I didn't.
At one point I felt like Pastor Pritchard was speaking to you directly about validation and how it is not God's intent for you to live your life to the expectations of those around you, family, friend or otherwise. I admit, I am to blame (on 2nd thought, maybe he was talking to me). I might have been responsible for decisions you made based on how we, your family (me), would feel instead of making decisions and doing what you thought was best for you.
It is hard for a parent to ever really stop being a parent. It is hard to stop encouraging your children to make decisions that are best for not just you but for me too. I am guilty of wanting the best for you in every sense of the word, but sometimes, what I might think is best, you may know is not best. You have made it this far, which is further than a lot. I will trust your decisions and be as supportive as I can because I know my love for my for you will not waiver.
The courage you displayed yesterday filled my heart more than you could know - but apparently my tears gave me away. You have so much more strength than I ever had. I'm envious.
Don't get me wrong - yesterday was not lost on me; I took yesterday's messages in and will continue to reflect on each and how they are all connected. Reconciliation, Validation, and living according to His original intent. I may not have felt God's presence in a literal sense, I do believe there was a reason why we were drawn to Solid Rock. The messages were too powerful and related to our current lives to think otherwise...
I look forward to our next visit to SRFC.
LUM - Mom